A worker's rant

Kay, to the point aja kali yah (opening yang tidak bagus hihi)

Yah anyway, I don't really have anything meaningful to do here. Everything that I've worked on, tasks that made me cross-eyed and fry my brain, all for almost naught. This is ridiculous.

Well I'm not the kind of person who works for the money/material things. I'd like job satisfaction, apprreciation and respect more. But at least I can learn one thing from this.

If I were to be a leader, I will respect my peers and my subordinates. I will NOT demean any of them unless they did something to cause it. And if they do deserve it, I will NOT demean them in front of other people (again, unless it's for special circumstances which I don't think will likely to rise). Each and every one of them is a real person, each and every one of them love and is loved by somebody. They're somebody's mother, somebody's father, somebody's son or daughter, and so on (you get the idea), so that means they do have value in this life, they meant the world to somebody, and they do deserve to be respected.

Besides, even from good management point of view, it is counter productive to make the work environment uncomfortable for everybody everytime we're around. I definitely wouldn't want to be the person who's avoided by everybody and cursed by a lot of people at times. Yecch..

Even if you do have a lot of power and earn that through hard work or whatever, that does not mean that you can use that in a negative way. Remember Hitler?

Huff....

Penyebaran desas-desus

First of all, I would like to say that I'm not the one to blame for falling for you, because you tripped me and did not bother to help me up.

Tolong..!!

Sodara-sodaraaaa

Ini yaa...gue teh udah berhari2 sepi kerjaan giniii..
Stress gue streesssss.....kemaren yah gue teh udah mulai ngupdate2 resume gue gitu masak....abis gue bosen pisan ga ngapa2in gitu jadinya gue menetapkan deadline buat diri gue sendiri, dan mulai menciptakan dan mengerjakan project2 sendiri (yang kalo diliat2 mah ya bisa lah masuk dalam kategori "hal2 yang nggak penting di dalam hidup ini"). Contohnyaaa?
1. Organize Music folder gue - sebenernya mah ini bisa lah dibilang lumayan penting...karena folder music gue berantakannn, teman2 sekalian!! Ini gara2 gue download I-Tunes ke laptop gue, dan file2 yang pernah pada suatu hari dulu gue atur rapih2...gue rename2 biar gampang nyarinya...ehhh di porak-porandakan oleh si I-Tunes yang ngga tau sopan santun ini. Pokonya susah di jelaskan lahhh...
2. Gambar-menggambar - walaupun sebenernya ini juga rada susah ternyata untuk diterapkan...karena gue juga ngga enak kl ada yang lewat meja gue, terus ngeliat tangan (and most probably ujung idung gue) coreng moreng item2 kena serbuk2 pensil..jadi so far yang gue dapet cuma sketsa gambar 3 buah jeruk dengan 2 helai daunnya yang klo dilihat sih yah...lumayan menyedihkan lah..
3. Baca novel Harlequin online - ini mah maha dahsyat ngga pentingnya...karna 99% dari novel2 Harlequin (ladies, as you might already know..) bertopik "apa girrlss...??" yak benar...ROMANCE...bayangkan selama paling engga 3-4 jam dalam sehari waktu idup gue dihabiskan dengan membaca omong kosong-omong kosong tersebut. If you don't know it yet, people, sorry to burst your lovely little bubbles, most of the things that happen in the story, they don't exist. And...ANDDD....they create unrealistic expectations on how a "great" and "true" love should be. Now girls (or guys..who happen to read harlequin novels..no need to tell us who u are, it's probably better that we don't know..but hey..to each his own..), please have a heart..don't torture your poor partner..guys are simple beings..they don't really have the abilities to actually do the things the men do in those novels...So...no. They don't exist.
4. Menghabiskan 1 gelas air setiap 1-2 jam...dan yang kemudian membuat gue bulak-balik wc setiap 2-3 jam sekali. Well at least ginjal gue bersih dikucurin aer putih terus.
5. Browsing2 ngga jelas...dan akhirnya daftar lagi ke game yang udah gue hentikan sekitar 2 taun lalu. So..now I am officially back, Utopia people!! Hail the great wizard! The wicked witch of the west is back!! Nyahahahahaha...


engh......*trus menarik dan menghembuskan napas yang panjaaaaang banget...
hh..
help me.....

Profesi Barunya Manda

Virgo
Virgos are known for their perfectionism and do very well in detailed-oriented professions. They remember things, excel at abstract thinking, and are very tidy and neat. Many Virgos do well in service-type jobs—you would be very happy with a Virgo manicurist or server (plus Virgos tend to make more money when working for tips). Writing, research, and statistics come easy to the meticulous Virgo brain. They are also easy to get along with as they are generally very cheerful. Many Virgos have a knack for languages. Best jobs: editor/writer, teacher, critic, technician, translator, detective, statistician.


Aaahhhhh daku maauuu....jadi detektiiiiiifff

ngngngngng

Haiyyoooo...ngapain yooooooo
udah ngga ada kerjaan pisan ini di kantor, kerjaan gue udah gue kelarin dr kemarenn..cobaa yaa, tau gitu kemaren gue pelan2 aja ngerjainnya ga usah kerajinan nyelesain jadinya bengong deh kan sekarang hihihihi

Coba yah ini ngapain enaknya ngabisin waktu sampe jam 5..which is in..3 more hours..

ngngngngngngngngng

Fly

Whoo..wee...

I am trying to get my mind to stay clear..right now I'm in a stupor...a drugged sleepiness, caused from a mix of two uber-drowsy-causing allergy pills and breathing the air that is infused with turpentine for the whole day. I feel like my head is hovering above my body instead of attached to my neck..haha

Been done with my project since..oh..two hours ago, and now I'm just trying to fill my time with doing something else before the time to go home comes (soon, my dear soldier, soon! hehehehe)

Am planning to go to our small reunion at 7..hopefully I can get rid of this stupor because I am getting ddiiizz..zzier and dddiiiii...zzier by the minute. I guess now I am sure that turpentine is not good for your body...

nooo...nooo (feeling just like those basement get-high moments on That 70's Show he he he he)

The Insomniac

Hm....
it's almost 1am...and I can't sleep...
This insomniac bug is back...felt like it's been a while since the last time I had trouble sleeping.
But not really. It hasn't been that long.
I just hope that I can work without dozing off tomorrow

Today...I am having a bend-the-rules day. Well, just a little bit.

Well by the way today around 4-ish, the sky got really dark. So dark I couldn't see a thing but my own reflection from the windows. Then it rained hard and I could see lightnings from the 12th floor. It was scary. It was exciting. I thought "hm..when was the last time I walked in the rain..it is so tempting to go outside and just..be soaked". Guess I didn't realize that I was thinking out loud because my co-workers looked at me like I was mental.

Hm...you know what...that reminds me of my early post when I just started this blog 3 years ago..let me look it up.

"When it rains, the sky touches the earth.
It is one of those moments...people say it is rare. Is it?
From the time when God molded the universe, the time when big bang formed one of the greatest gift from God, rain had become the essence of life.
Water defeats fire. If fire is rage, then rain is forgiveness. Is it true that forgiveness give life to the universe? Is it true that despite the accumulation of human destruction, forgiveness keeps the world moving?
..
..
..
..
..
When it rains, the sky touches the earth."

There, I copy-pasted it hehe. It was my second post on August 05.
And now I just smile :)

and still can't sleep by the way. hehehe

Well my dear friends...I am walking on a weird path right now. Discovering stuff that I didn't know before, about me, about other people.
How one can lose a lot and gain a lot more at the same time. I just hope that I won't be so blinded by my loss I'm not going to appreciate or even realize the things that I gained.

Patch. To patch. Patching up is what I need to do right now. Patch it up good so it may stand other blows, and move on.

One thing though...I just want to say that I may not know what it feels to be in love yet...but I do know love, and I believe I do get love. I love you guys, who always have my back. So..I love you guys. And thank you. That's all I can say. And I hope you guys know that I would do the same for each and every one of you in a heart beat. You may not know how much you've helped me so I'm letting you know now. I am standing here intact, with my head held up high, and quite happy. I'm sure I'll get my mojo back in no time, and it's all thanks to you guys. I love you =)

wtf??

Ugggh.....
I just got a phone call from somebody I don't know...and did not want to give me his name. He gave me names of other people that he thought I'm supposed to know. I didn't recognize any of them. He said he was from the "kepolisian". And still gave me list of names I didn't recognized instead of giving me his own. And after that, he got pissed off that I didn't recognize his voice and told me: "Yaudah ya bu ya lain kali kalo ada perlu apa2 nggak usah telepon2 kesini lagi".
Geez...!!

I don't like growing uuuppp :(

Growing Up

© By Melissa S. Rawls

Life is so easy
when you are young.
When kisses heal boo-boos
and lullabies are sung.
It seemed that life could go on for years,
as long as the nightlight was there
to quiet our fears.
Why does growing up
have to be so hard?
When did the world become
bigger than our own back yard?
There is no more recess
to stop the stress of the school day.
There are no more falling stars
that can take our worries away.
Decisions are more complicated
now that we are grown,
why cant we go back
to when life was our own?

Save Bandung!!!!!

Ada satu issue yang bikin gue akhir2 ini rada khawatir nih...
Bandung will not be Bandung anymore!

It started when I first noticed that it is actually easier to drive in Jakarta than in Bandung. I mean..what was that? I always thought that to be the opposite. Maybe it was...ah..so sad..

And then I got an invitation to sign a petition to save Babakan Siliwangi. The local gov't is planning to destroy the whole green spot into a mall. A friggin' mall!!!!!!!! (By the way guys let's support those who is fighting to save Baksil...for those of you who hasn't sign the petition, you can do it here http://www.petitiononline.com/baksil/petition.html)

Terus, tadi gue ngobrol ama kenalan gue yang kerja di PU...katanya sekarang mereka lagi nego sama pemkot Bandung buat menyebarkan pusat bisnis ga cm di jakarta, tp mau coba dialirkan ke Bandung...I was a little nervous hearing that...So I told him, if you guys are going to do it, please at least keep it green in any way possible...

Oh dear....

By the way ini ada link dr bbrp blog yg concern juga ttg Baksil
http://ikhsanputra.wordpress.com/2008/09/18/selamatkan-babakan-siliwangi/
http://jalankita.wordpress.com/2008/09/12/selamatkan-babakan-siliwangi/

Waa...udah lama ngga denger lagu Stop n Starenya One Republic. Gue jadi inget St. Louis lagi kl denger lagu ini abis disana sering banget diputer dimana2 pas waktu2nya gue udah ampir cabut hehehehe.
Inget juga waktu kerja dulu di BofA pas lunch, g suka parkir di area Shop n Save sebelah bank gue, cari parkiran yg paling pojok dan sepi, trus makan lunch gue dengan tenang sambil dengerin radio/mp3 and sambil baca hehehe.

Yah eniweiii....bonyok lagi pergi nih selama seminggu. Rumah sepiiii, tadi malem baru kerasa tuh..untung banyak film bagus di tivi hihi..nontonin CSI ama ada film Eragon juga tuh.

Teyuus....apalagi ya....doh ngga tau nih gue lagi ngantuk and lemes banget, padahal belom juga jam 10 pagi inii....
Ini...btw....space bar di laptop gue kok berdecit2 mulu gini sih??? Kesannya jadi kayak ada tikus kecil dibawah keyboard gue yang ekornya kepencet2 space bar (apa sih?? hehehehe)

Teyus teyus teyuuus...apalagi nih yaa. Oiya katanya CNN ada kapal pesiar gede yang berhasil kabur dari serangan para bajak laut and the beloved Dubya apologized for the recession (asli nih gue lagi ngga penting banget hari ini hehehhehe)

Ngeeeeniweeii
This morning otw to work...biasalah...traffic...
Man....I think I still need time to get used to the fact that Jakartans are an angry bunch. It still puzzled me how it takes so little to get Jakartans so angry? Geez...hehehe

St. Louis

Hm....3 in a day...this is a new record (I think).
Soooouw...
hmmm...
mmmm..

I miss my giiiirrrllllsss.....dulu sih kl lg suntuk gini gampang tinggal ke delmar/drunken fish....indulging myself with a cold b and that sushi goodness with my girlfriends...
Huff...this is when I miss Saint Louis the most. The ability to just go anywhere, whenever I want without having to worry about stuff , with people who are close to me.

I remember the last time I had a big "issue"..., I drove around the highways of St. Louis, in the middle of the night, for hours, without having to worry about anything but the stuff that was happening.

Yeah I miss that. Like now, when I just want to get away, I can't. Well at least not as freely, and definitely not without other stuff that I am "forced" to worry about.

Everybody is still a stranger (for now)...and boy does it feel lonely. I know that this is a process...but you know me..the queen of instant gratification..hehehe.
I know I know...spoiled brat..just say it. But nyah nyah....do I look like I care? ;p

Yeah I need a doze of my old life. Luckily tomorrow I'll meet some of them (hopefully). Hopefully it'll be able to recharge my spirit. It's been too damn low. For too damn long.

Manda lagi nyolot

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2. apa yg km liyad skr?
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3. apa yg ada dipikiran km skr?
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5. darimana aja?
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6. lg pake bju apa?
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9. terakiR makan?
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10. terakir mandi?
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13. ngm0ngin apah?
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14. terakir testy daRi?
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15. ngm0ng apah?
=. mo maen
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16. Lagu terakir yg didenger?
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17. apah yg Lo pgn skr?
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18. kenapah?
=. emang yg gue mau pernah penting..?
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19. pnya atm?
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20. Pnya msn/ym?
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21. Pnya fs?
=. mnurut lo??
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23. terakir naek m0bil?
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24. terakir naek m0tor?
=. 2 taun lalu.
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25. terakir naek pesawat?
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26. kota terakir yg didatengin?
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32. Lg pgn mik apa?
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33. apa yg kmu pgn lakuin skr?
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oh crap..

Wah gue lagi rajin ngupdate blog gini yaaa
Hari ini kayaknya gue lagi ngerasa zombie-like gitu deh...tadi juga pas bangun tuh sempet seriously thinking about skipping work. But then conscience kicked in, I don't think the guilt is worth the extra oh..probably 2 hrs of sleep at the most. So I dragged my lazy self out of bed.

Geez...need to smile more today missy..I mean, real smile that comes from the inside, not the faux..plastered on my face kind.

For those of you who knows about my love of driving, yeah well I've been feeling the utter laziness...just flat out refusing to drive since yesterday. I am lucky my dad has a driver, but even if we don't have any, I think I'd still find some other way to go, prolly taxi or busway.

Oooh I hate it when there's something that keeps annoyingly gnawing on my consciousness all day like this..and it's been 2 days! It's like no matter what I do my mind keeps going back to this...thing that I am having. Damn you, mind! Please be cooperative for once, got a shitload of work to do!

Snow Patrol - Signal Fire

The perfect words never crossed my mind
Cause there was nothing in there but you
I felt every ounce of me screaming out
But the sound was trapped deep in me

All I've wanted just sped right past me
While I was rooted fast to the earth
I could be stuck here for a thousand years
Without your arms to drag me out

There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked
Hold me close
'Cause I need you to guide me to safety

No I won't wait forever

In the confusion and the aftermath
You are my signal fire
The only resolution and the only joy
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes

Pencurahan keinginan gue buat ngakak hihi (atau ngikik kali ya ini mah..)

Huahahahaha...
doh g pengen anget ngakak tapi ngga bisa soalnya lagi di kantor, ntar orang2 nyangka gue udah edan lagi hihihihi

Ini gue teh lagi kerja sambil dengerin radio. Lagi dengerin Putus di Prambors, ini Dagienkz (sori kl salah spellnya ga usah protes deh) ama Desta. Mereka lagi bikin kuis gitu. Jadi mereka nyanyiin satu lagu, tapi liriknya dr lagu lain. Nah barusan mereka nyanyiin Backstreet Boys yg As Long As You Love Me, rencananya mo pake nada Topi Saya Bundar, cuma susah bener kayanya..ujung2nya selalu jadinya either Indonesia Raya atau Halo2 Bandung hihihihihihi. Udah gitu pas mereka berhasil nyanyiin juga jadinya keluarnya dodol banget hihihihi
"Suatu kolaborasi yang sangat tidak apik, kawula muda.." komentarnya. hahaha dodool..

Love

Even after all this time

The sun never says to the earth, "You owe me."

Look what happens with a Love like that!

—It lights the whole Sky. (Hafiz)

Hoaaaaa...hmmm...ngantuknyaaaaaaaaaaaa
Ini diluar lagi ujan pula jadi enak banget nih buat tiduran hehehehe

Simply

SIMPLY (dewi lestari)

I stand here with a thousand words and tons of hopes
But blankness is the place they ended up the most
I’m lost in the frequency of the oddities
It feels so hard to breathe
I’m like a hapless piece of symphony that no one really cares to hear

You simply inspire me
Collide into me
But no one’s there
So why don’t you hold me
Why don’t you move me
So I know you care
I wonder how far to go
To simply have you and simply keep you

And now, when everything has been said and done
In silence I can only wish I am the one
I’m floating like a bubble that will pop and be gone
Just trying to make you see
The simplicity of lock and key
And how you’re never ever there to free me

busyyiiiieeetttttt
ini kerjaan gue..kayaknya kok salah2 mulu sih? bingung gue..
intinya tuh gue ga nangkep2...perasaan tiap g nanya kynya peraturannya berubah lagi..padahal mah engga juga sih kynya
ini emang gue yg dodol apa gimana sih?
huwaaa