Bye Grandma

So last Saturday I got news that my nini has passed away. Family and I then rushed to Bandung to bid our last goodbye.  We got there at night and there she was.
I miss her.....I miss her feisty self. She was never one to take anybody's bullshit. She was so strong that it took a strong person to truly understands her. I love her for that. She was my rock. Always was.
I bid you farewell nini..now you're free from the sickly body you didn't deserve for these past years. Now you can be you again.

Love,
Manda

Sanctuary

So now I'm a mother of two. Nothing else is going on right now I don't think.
Well I started listening to music again now. For someone who loooves music, being absent from it for about a year is pretty significant. I didn't even really gave it much thought until one day I listened to a John Mayer song from my laptop, with an earphone. I mean really listen to the song with eyes closed. Never thought the effect would be so significant. Felt like I am starting to get pieces of myself back.
Don't get me wrong..being a mother and a wife is great. Seriously. I wouldn't trade it with anything else. The love I felt and give to my husband and kids are so great that I left myself out without even thinking about it.
Now I am holding on to my music. Taking some me time at night with my earphones on and eyes shut. Oh sanctuary. Hello Amanda, let's dance like crazy in our dream tonight.  Bottoms up :)

Rant

Waah udah lama banget ga nuliiiiss…pengen mulai blogging lagi tapi no time euy. I don’ even have enough time to take care of myself nowadays (curcol alert)

Ini ya…di project yg sekarang…emosi jiwa boookk

Why? Because of questionable leadership of a certain leader, I’d say! Hehehehe
It is not the work that I mind.Trust me I do not mind at all. However, it is the leadership style (if any leadership ahown at all) that burned us all to the ground.

At least I can learn on what NOT to do when I’m a leader. Yiihaaa!

bosen sebosen bosen nya

Ampun dijeeee...

Gue udah nganggur ga ada kerjaan dari jam 3 tapi belom bisa pulang krn bos2nya juga belom pada pulang, krn masih jam 3, dan krn baru dijemput jam 7 juga. And it feels oh so excruciating! Pala gue sampe puyeng liatin laptop terus...
Kerjaan gue kan tadi udh beres, udh gw kirim, tp belom bisa direview. Baru bisa besok pagi jadi gw harus nyampe kantor jam 8

Anyhoo...gue udah kram otak gini euy..udah buka yahoo news, kompas, detik, ebay, jakarta post, dll dsb..

Weight struggle

I've never thought in a million years that I will be one of those who struggle with weight. I mean seriously statting to struggle with my health as well. For the first time in years, my asthma came back and I actually went to the ER because of it. I can't sing like I used to because I have shorter breath now. My energy level is at its lowest and my back pain is coming back with a vengeance, with its worst attack starts today. And, most importantly, my self confidence has really been going south and I long for it. I really miss having that spring in my every step every morning. Now, all of my attempts on dressing up and have my make up done feels like a joke.