St. Louis

Hm....3 in a day...this is a new record (I think).
Soooouw...
hmmm...
mmmm..

I miss my giiiirrrllllsss.....dulu sih kl lg suntuk gini gampang tinggal ke delmar/drunken fish....indulging myself with a cold b and that sushi goodness with my girlfriends...
Huff...this is when I miss Saint Louis the most. The ability to just go anywhere, whenever I want without having to worry about stuff , with people who are close to me.

I remember the last time I had a big "issue"..., I drove around the highways of St. Louis, in the middle of the night, for hours, without having to worry about anything but the stuff that was happening.

Yeah I miss that. Like now, when I just want to get away, I can't. Well at least not as freely, and definitely not without other stuff that I am "forced" to worry about.

Everybody is still a stranger (for now)...and boy does it feel lonely. I know that this is a process...but you know me..the queen of instant gratification..hehehe.
I know I know...spoiled brat..just say it. But nyah nyah....do I look like I care? ;p

Yeah I need a doze of my old life. Luckily tomorrow I'll meet some of them (hopefully). Hopefully it'll be able to recharge my spirit. It's been too damn low. For too damn long.

Manda lagi nyolot

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1. apa yg km rasain skr?
=. ngh
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2. apa yg km liyad skr?
=. ?? layar laptop kali? apa lagi???
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3. apa yg ada dipikiran km skr?
=. ngh
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4. apa yg ada disbelahmu skr?
=. hp ga penting
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5. darimana aja?
=. kantor
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6. lg pake bju apa?
=. ga penting
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7. henpondmu waRna?
=. oranye
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8. gantungan henpond waRna?
=. ga pake. ganggu.
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9. terakiR makan?
=. td pagi
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10. terakir mandi?
=. td pagi
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11. terakir sms?
=. ngga penting
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12. ama?
=. ga penting
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13. ngm0ngin apah?
=. ga penting
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14. terakir testy daRi?
=. wudhi
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15. ngm0ng apah?
=. mo maen
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16. Lagu terakir yg didenger?
=. ga inget
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17. apah yg Lo pgn skr?
=. ga penting
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18. kenapah?
=. emang yg gue mau pernah penting..?
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19. pnya atm?
=. pertanyaannya jg ga penting
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20. Pnya msn/ym?
=. punya
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21. Pnya fs?
=. mnurut lo??
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22. baskinR0bin/minimeLtz?
=. ga suka eskrim
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23. terakir naek m0bil?
=. tadi. macet.
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24. terakir naek m0tor?
=. 2 taun lalu.
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25. terakir naek pesawat?
=. bbrp bln lalu.
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26. kota terakir yg didatengin?
=. ga penting
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27. status?
=. in a rltnshp
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28. Pengen teriak?
=. ngapain. nyape2in.
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29. Pengen dipeluk?
=. gak.
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30. Pengen dicium?
=. gak.
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31. Lg pgn mam apa?
=. ga laper.
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32. Lg pgn mik apa?
=. minum maksud lo? ga aus.
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33. apa yg kmu pgn lakuin skr?
=. auk.
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oh crap..

Wah gue lagi rajin ngupdate blog gini yaaa
Hari ini kayaknya gue lagi ngerasa zombie-like gitu deh...tadi juga pas bangun tuh sempet seriously thinking about skipping work. But then conscience kicked in, I don't think the guilt is worth the extra oh..probably 2 hrs of sleep at the most. So I dragged my lazy self out of bed.

Geez...need to smile more today missy..I mean, real smile that comes from the inside, not the faux..plastered on my face kind.

For those of you who knows about my love of driving, yeah well I've been feeling the utter laziness...just flat out refusing to drive since yesterday. I am lucky my dad has a driver, but even if we don't have any, I think I'd still find some other way to go, prolly taxi or busway.

Oooh I hate it when there's something that keeps annoyingly gnawing on my consciousness all day like this..and it's been 2 days! It's like no matter what I do my mind keeps going back to this...thing that I am having. Damn you, mind! Please be cooperative for once, got a shitload of work to do!

Snow Patrol - Signal Fire

The perfect words never crossed my mind
Cause there was nothing in there but you
I felt every ounce of me screaming out
But the sound was trapped deep in me

All I've wanted just sped right past me
While I was rooted fast to the earth
I could be stuck here for a thousand years
Without your arms to drag me out

There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked
Hold me close
'Cause I need you to guide me to safety

No I won't wait forever

In the confusion and the aftermath
You are my signal fire
The only resolution and the only joy
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes

Pencurahan keinginan gue buat ngakak hihi (atau ngikik kali ya ini mah..)

Huahahahaha...
doh g pengen anget ngakak tapi ngga bisa soalnya lagi di kantor, ntar orang2 nyangka gue udah edan lagi hihihihi

Ini gue teh lagi kerja sambil dengerin radio. Lagi dengerin Putus di Prambors, ini Dagienkz (sori kl salah spellnya ga usah protes deh) ama Desta. Mereka lagi bikin kuis gitu. Jadi mereka nyanyiin satu lagu, tapi liriknya dr lagu lain. Nah barusan mereka nyanyiin Backstreet Boys yg As Long As You Love Me, rencananya mo pake nada Topi Saya Bundar, cuma susah bener kayanya..ujung2nya selalu jadinya either Indonesia Raya atau Halo2 Bandung hihihihihihi. Udah gitu pas mereka berhasil nyanyiin juga jadinya keluarnya dodol banget hihihihi
"Suatu kolaborasi yang sangat tidak apik, kawula muda.." komentarnya. hahaha dodool..

Love

Even after all this time

The sun never says to the earth, "You owe me."

Look what happens with a Love like that!

—It lights the whole Sky. (Hafiz)

Hoaaaaa...hmmm...ngantuknyaaaaaaaaaaaa
Ini diluar lagi ujan pula jadi enak banget nih buat tiduran hehehehe

Simply

SIMPLY (dewi lestari)

I stand here with a thousand words and tons of hopes
But blankness is the place they ended up the most
I’m lost in the frequency of the oddities
It feels so hard to breathe
I’m like a hapless piece of symphony that no one really cares to hear

You simply inspire me
Collide into me
But no one’s there
So why don’t you hold me
Why don’t you move me
So I know you care
I wonder how far to go
To simply have you and simply keep you

And now, when everything has been said and done
In silence I can only wish I am the one
I’m floating like a bubble that will pop and be gone
Just trying to make you see
The simplicity of lock and key
And how you’re never ever there to free me

busyyiiiieeetttttt
ini kerjaan gue..kayaknya kok salah2 mulu sih? bingung gue..
intinya tuh gue ga nangkep2...perasaan tiap g nanya kynya peraturannya berubah lagi..padahal mah engga juga sih kynya
ini emang gue yg dodol apa gimana sih?
huwaaa

an employed and not so single mandy ;p

Oh wow I am actually employed...and in a relationship right now..all in less than 2 months after I came back to Indo! hahaha..dayum..that's what i call speed hehehe
well...i was actually started to work with the consulting company that i am working for right now as an intern this monday. and 3 days later i was hired..whoa that was fast..i was supposed to be an intern for 3 months!

yah eniwei...i am very...very..very grateful for everything that was given to me. woohoo!!

=)